JoShirROX =)

2009-04-17T06:26:00.001-07:00

I can tell everybody frankly that choir has become my life. I cannot live without it. If you were to trace back to my primary school days of my choir history, I cannot give you a clear answer as to why I join choir. I think I joined choir because of peer pressure. Singing sounded normal then and for the sake of a CCA, I decided to join choir to occupy my time. I joined Dunman High choir not out of interest too, but because I want to get into Dunman High. (I joined choir through DSA) About three years have passed and I can tell you straight in the face that I LOVE CHOIR SUPER DUPER A LOT!

I would be telling you a straight lie if I said I enjoyed choir for every single practice. True, choir has its ups and downs and practices were not always productive. I was even irritated with the choir at some point in time, however, deep in my heart, my love for the choir is not one to be underestimated. If I were to write about all the events that happened in choir, this reflection will be never ending. So, I will just write about one event that is still vividly fresh in my mind, SYF 2009.

SYF is a truly god given event that he had specially put in my life. This competition has impacted me in a way that nothing else can. When our choir committee began to plan for SYF, our aim was gold with honours. This was not an unrealistic aim. We knew that we could do it. Nothing was going to stop us from doing it. To achieve our goal, we had to practice extremely hard in the months leading up to SYF. We did physical training three times a week and had choir for three hours every practice. The learning process was like a roller coaster ride. There were good days and bad days, but certainly more good than bad. Our three SYF pieces are THE WHITE HORSES, KYRIE and RI WENG DU ZHAN. Frankly speaking, we did not like the songs at first but as days progressed, we saw the uniqueness and the beauty of these pieces.

We spent a long time to set a solid foundation for the songs, but bit by bit, the songs were put into place. Dynamics, phrasing, rhythm, style, tone, sound etc were performed and notes were corrected. Our choir worked hard during practices and out of practice to do their best in DHS choir. We had exchanges with choirs from other schools, to learn from one another. Time passes. There comes a stage when our conductor told us that we were ready for SYF. We felt good, pure goodness. However, this did not allow us to be complacent and we still trained hard for the competition.

16th April 2009 marks the day that we had long awaited for. I was quite calm on that day and all that I could think of was to do my best in the performance. We had our last rehearsals in the choir room. Our kyrie had exactly the right sound that we had been hoping for. We had tall vowels and a round sound. Kyrie sounded very touching, even our conductor nodded her head in approval. Ri Weng was good! We did not rush even with a fast tempo. White horses was lovely. I can even picture the waves rising and dipping as they toss playfully. We knew we were ready. We were certain we were ready. We were ready.

We were the last choir to perform. I was trying to breathe deeply and keep calm backstage. I was thinking something humorous: What if I tripped on my skirt and embarrassed the choir? Anyway, when we went onstage, I felt a sudden outburst of confidence. This was the day that I had been waiting for. I was not there for a competition, but to showcase the beauty of choral music. As the piano started playing, the vision of waves had already flooded my mind. I am the wave, I will gallop and bound with all my other friends till we slowly dissolve in the mist. My mind was a clear enjoyment. I am a performer. I am here to sing and perform. I will do my best. Kyrie was better than anyone expected. Our singing touched my heart, especially at the e lei I son part. I felt touched, really touched. What beautiful music, what nice sound, O Kyrie. Before I knew it, Kyrie came to an end. Our last chord came to a stop. Ri Weng Du Zhan came in full speed. Our horses were black and full of energy. We did not have any legs missing, thankfully. We did not go out of tune. As our performance came to an end, I felt extreme satisfaction. That feeling was good. I did not want to step offstage. I want to perform the songs over and over again. Oh why, why must this magnificent day come to an end? I want to perform. I want to sing. I want the nice melody. I was full of reluctance as I made my way offstage. Lots of my friends burst into tears of joy because we performed better than we expected. We knew we had done our best and would leave behind NO regrets.

Ms Lin said our performance was fabulous. The year ones said that our performance was good. We were just hoping that we could do the school proud by getting a gold or a gold with honours. We held our breaths as we waited for the results to be announced. “ The 36th choir, Dunman High School, Silver” A stunned silence could be felt before the results sank in. People burst into tears, disappointed that they failed to achieve their goal. I was shocked but remained calm. I am truly proud of our choir regardless of the results that we get. I know that most people only look at results. People tend to assume of choirs as either a gold choir, a silver choir or a bronze choir. Actually, there are no such choirs. There are only good or poor choirs. Hence, Dunman High Choir is a good choir which attained a silver in SYF.

Through SYFs, we learnt that experience and friendship rule over results. It does not matter how people view us but how we viewed ourselves. We had put in our GOLD WITH HONOURS HONOURS HONOURS HONOURS HONOURS efforts and nothing matters to us anymore. We had made tremendous improvements together as a big family and had had lots of memorable experiences. I am truly proud of DHS choir.

My love for choral music has also increased greatly through this event. I want to be a performer. I can be a good performer. I will be a good performer. I would like to thank Ms Tham, our conductor, for patiently guiding the choir through months of practices. I would like to thank Ms Lin, Mrs Yeo and Mr Tan for their guidance and support, the committee especially our president Jane, vice president Shou Yi and Kasey and our student conductor, Zi Xuan for motivating and encouraging us during practices. I would like to thank God for providing me support when I feel down. Most importantly, I would like to thank all our choristers who sent me letters of encouragements and put in their best in the performance. I will never ever forget this wonderful experience. THANK YOU DHS CHOIR. I LOVE YOU!

2008-12-10T22:00:00.000-08:00

Helllooooooooo! Finally a day of rest after a whole week. Had choir practice on Tuesday and Wednesday at MOUNT SINAI! Very few people turn up because most of them went overseas. Only the loyal me stay in Singapore, my beloved countryyyyyy. Yeeks! Learnt all those orientation songs and WHITE HORSES. The piece is quite interesting when you start learning it but it gets more boring every second.

Anywayzzz, while we were walking home from school on Tuesday, there was this man at the underpass of the MRT station and he was kinda basking. Not an unfamiliar sight huh? So Zhi Ting, Yi Ching and me were like walking towards his direction and he suddenly went to the middle of the underpass and started opening his legs. After that, he began leaning backwards and smiled a pervertic smile. We were like ????? What was he doing? Then he started singing some weird song while still smiling at us. Hwee Wern and Yun Qi were also there. Super funny.

Now I am currently obsessed with xiao3 niang2 re3. YAY! A lot of people from choir also watch that show! I LOVE YUE NIANG and I still cannot accept the fact that Yu Zhu is going to die soonnnnnn! SAD lah this show. I bet only Yue Niang survived at the end lorzzz. I just want Charlie Zhang and his son to die soon. That will never happen! SAD again.

I still have three episodes of FORENSIC HEROES waiting for me at home!!!!!! Missed that show too! Now there is an exciting murder case. Must go and watch! I think that I am watching too much television! Will Die next year, especially when all my classmates are all the smartyzzz people. Shall stop here!

Joanna (:

2008-11-14T18:28:00.000-08:00

Yipee, I am posting again. I shall not let my blog rot. I am super lonely now! There is a lot to do at home, but I don't wish to do anything. My choir is in Vienna now, bringing glory to the school.... I hope. My sister will be leaving for Shan Dong tomorrow and that leaves me all alone at home. I REALLY WANT TO GO VIENNA CAN? Seeing the choir practice and everything makes me depressed. They separated the Vienna choir and the non-Vienna choir for a few sessions. I hope that I can join them for SYF once they come back.

I got into 3L next year, triple science history. Just a bit unhappy that my sister got into 6K. I was hoping that we can be the Ls. (my sister was from 5L) Anywayzz, looking forward to be with my new class, but I will miss my friends in 2A. SOBS. Shirlyn not same class as me lehsss! I was hoping that a miracle will happen...... Enjoying herself in Vienna now! Remember to buy goodies for me ok??

Life is boring! Maybe I made it that way. I don't know. I don't get it why people can do what they want while I have to do what other people want. I feel like I am living for other people and not myself. I am not even supposed to be blogging now! Argh! My life is so topsy turvy. When will the Vienna people come back? I have already deserted the choir for so long. Other people seem to be so busy with their CCAs and I feel like I am in a totally different world. Why must I miss the experience of a lifetime? (I don't think that I will be going Vienna ever again)

Go room to study and rot. Bye

Joanna (:

2008-10-24T22:00:00.000-07:00

Hello, I am so obsessed with channel 8, 9pm crime busters x2. Super nice lor, so I shall upload the theme song here. I like Yu Jie, she has a very unique beauty in this show. Xia Zhu is very cute and Da Xiong is very lame. Can you believe that Surgical Maniac is a girl? When I saw that, I was like: he gay huh? Anyway, hope you like the theme song, because I like it very much. A bit mysterious....................

2008-10-17T00:00:00.000-07:00

Hi, exams are over and I am blogging again. Anybody have any ideas how to do the e portfolio? I dunno how to do! Actually I wanted to blog about how badly I did for my exams but then.......... forget it. I dun want to spoil my wonderful mood.

Yesterday went to school for choir practice and it was well, weird. I was like the only person in 2A attending the flag raising ceremony and Shirlyn was standing behind me. Then chen lao shi came and said I must represent 2A for the day. LOL Anyway, we had PT and I ran 2 rounds round the track. Became so tired after that that I did not play captain's ball. Our PT ended at like 10.00 and I have only one hour of choir practice!

Wished I was going to Vienna. It sounded so fun! I dun mind the extra practices! Haiz! Time passes so quickly when I was having fun! Then Ms Lin came to choir to talk about some issues. She confused me with the VISA thing. Is that how you spell it? Anyway, I went home to ask my parents and they said I do not need a VISA. Anyway, I am also not going Vienna.

My life has been so boring lately and do you know that we are getting back our exam papers in the gym????? I was reading the notice board and almost fainted. Not in our classes! In the gym!

The whole level.

This is the order

First day

Language Arts

History

Second day

Geography

Higher Chinese

Mathematics

Science

I am dead!

I thank my parents for guiding me through this difficult time!

I thank God too!

Lord, I pray that you will use my results, good or bad to glorify your name

Because I am living for your glory

Joanna :)

2008-09-19T12:00:00.000-07:00

I am going to post some very important scenes in TO KILL A MOCKINGBIRD. You all can revise for your eoys if you want (by watching). Relax a while.....

Most famous speech

This is the closing scene

Still got a lot, just that dun want to post so many. Go youtube watch. Must study for EOYS. BYE!

Joanna :)

2008-09-08T02:24:00.000-07:00

"I will never leave you nor forsake you"

These words really played a major part in my life.

I take comfort that the Lord still loves me regardless of how many times I have failed him.

"A thousand times I failed, still your mercy remains"

The quality of mercy is not strained

It droppeth as the gentle rain from heaven upon the place beneath

It is twice blest.

It bleseth him that gives and him that takes

Tis mightiest in the mightiest.................

It is the attribute of GOD himself

I am grateful that I have a merciful God

I am grateful that God will forgive me when I make the most ridiculous mistakes

I am grateful that he will never leave me nor forsake me

I am grateful for who he is

Mercy............

I do not deserve it

I am a rotten apple

Yet, it is by grace and through faith that I am saved

Grace

Faith

Mercy

I thank you

Lord.........

I thank you

You are my strength

my shield

my portion

deliverer

my shelther

strong tower

my very present help in times of need

Joanna :)

2008-09-03T00:00:00.000-07:00

Here I am blogging again. I just finished the maths velocity quiz on moodle and am still stuck with one stupid question! If any of you know how to do, can you please msn me or tag at my blog. Even if I offline also can msn, cos I appear offline very often. The question goes:

The graph shows the velocity-time graph of a particle. A second particle moved off from the same point at the same time, at 3m/s. How long did they take to meet?

I don't have the graph with me so can you please go moodle do? it is at year 2 NUMBERS & ALGEBRA, velocity quiz. The correct answer is 4/3 s. Just that I dun know how they get it.

Anyway, for updates. I went to esplanade on Sunday to watch sequences, performed by the SYC choir. The songs were very nice but very long. The concert took 2 and a half hours and the sopranos sang super high. It is out of the qestion for me to reach it. Then we were like all so anxious to spot Mr Tay, lol. Great concert.

Monday I went to Annabelle's house to do the science project. My role is the lawyer. I am so glad that I finished my script. YAY! I considered it done. I think we just need to meet one more time to rehearse can le.

Tuesday I went again to Annabelle's house. Fortunately, my father can fetch me there. I remembered waiting for bus 15 on monday and the bus doesn't seem to come. Then when I took bus 15 back, I was the only one on the bus! I think I should have stayed with yan jun to take 23. A bit regret lah. I was the first to reach Annabelle's house. Then we went to the playground to play and *** *** kept calling me sharp sharp edges so I called her abnormal. Then we just kept on quarelling. I think the whole condo can hear us quarrell. OOPS!

Then yen han and ling min arrived, with *** ***, annabelle and I booing them. We rehearsed our dramatic reading and did the script of modern imterpretation. Then we tried to choreograph our own actions and Yan Jun just kept laughing. Oh, there is still the ladybird snatch between me and *** ***. She super pro lor! But in the end, she still gave it to me after I ASKED her. That is a new friend for buggy.

Ok, that is all for the updates. By the way, holidays like dun have a lot of homework like that. So I can take the time to revise. Will not be updating too often. So bye!

P.S. Hope you like my new blogskin !

Joanna

2008-08-28T02:43:00.000-07:00

Ok, am doing the maths quiz in moodle and I decided to take a break so here I come. Tried the speed test for a while too. I wanna win *** *** in every single thing! Haha, I think I cannot. I just read finish twilight saga! It is super nice and I feel that the nicest book is eclipse. Twilight is the most boring ok?

I know a lot of people do not agree with me. Edward and Bella are like so happy, together with Jacob and Renesmee. Lovely ending.

Anyway, this is my best result for the speed test. Can beat that?

72 words

The holidays are starting and my mood has not changed a bit. I am going to die. Global warming is killing the earth and the earth is going to die. The earth is ending and Jesus is coming back! YAY! LOVE HIM!!!

Joanna

2008-08-25T06:59:00.000-07:00

You are getting worse

You are not helping

I am at the mercy of you

You can do whatever you want with me

You seem to

When can this stop?

Why are you doing this to me?

What have I done wrong?

Are you pushing me deeper into the dark dark pit?

I want to break free

When can I get away from you?

Every air that I breathe reeks of you

I am uncontrollably stuck with you

Please let go of me

I want to be free

Please

When will this madness stop?

This process of burning

Burning

Burning

The holes in my heart

When will this ever stop?

I hate you

I hate you so much

Why am I at your mercy?

How can I escape from you?

You make me miserable

I hate you

2008-08-21T04:50:00.000-07:00

You are so maddening!

When can I get rid of you?

How can I get myself off this crap?

I am sick

I am tired

And I don't know what to do

You are giving me nightmares everyday

I am begging you to stop

I cannot control this anymore

Please

Please

Please

Please

Please

Please

Please

Please

Please

Please

Please

Please

Please

Please

Please

Please

Please

Please

Don't let me drown in my pool of tears

You are mean

Very mean

What do you want from me?

I am really begging you

Please stop torturing me

It hurts

My expression is more than agony

It is very painful

Can you stop doing that to me?

2008-08-09T00:29:00.000-07:00

I post this post only for my beloved buggy ok?

I really miss her and this is NEW YORK local time right now. At least, this makes me feel a little bit better.

Joanna

2008-08-05T02:10:00.000-07:00

Moodle crashed now!

I cannot do my science quiz

I am blaming moodle although I know that it is my fault

Actually, it is exactly 5.00pm now and I thought moodle only crashed at night

I was wrong

I am always wrong

I am not surprised

And I am not EMOING

The world is weird

I don't belong somehow

I don't belong now

and forever

I am not blaming everybody

only myself

Maybe I am at the wrong place and at the wrong time

Confused

Lonely

Depressed

Oh, I lost hope

Where is hope?

Light?

Love?

Peace?

Freedom?

I seem to be in the desert

I want spiritual water

But I don't seem to get it

I want to open the eyes of my heart

I want holy water

I want to start anew

What have I done wrong?

What if I am a vampire?.................

(This is not a random thought)

Will things be different?

Joanna :)

p.s. will trust in God forever even when things just seem like................ now

2008-08-01T01:00:00.000-07:00

Hello everyone, I am updating again although I don't think that there are lots of people interested in what I am going to blog about. I got a bit confused over the evaluating of usefulness thing for the history test so I went to investigate. (hardworking me) Anyway, I found this information that is quite useful to me.

Comparing sources Top Tips When you are asked to compare to sources and decide on their reliability and/or usefulness make sure you analyse both

For each source analyse its strengths and weaknesses - what makes it reliable/useful, what detracts from its reliability/utility Come to a conclusion!

Don't say they are both of the same reliability or usefulness, choose one and state your case clearly

Looking at Bias

Don't fall into the trap of calling a source biased just because it is written by someone on a particular side of a dispute. Make sure you have grounds for describing a source as biased!

The essential skill is to explain how and why a source is biased and to explain why it matters that a source is biased namely that it affects its reliability and perhaps usefulness

When thinking about usefulness

The key trigger here is an understanding of what your line of enquiry is.

For instance a biased source might be extremely useful if you are investigating the opinions of a particular group at a particular time, but less useful if you were asked to investigate "the facts" of an event

When sources disagree

It is an examiner favourite to ask why two or more sources don't agree.

Don't just describe the sources back to the examiner - this is how they disagree not why.

Also take care to remain focussed - you have not been asked about reliability or usefulness here!
Use all the sources and your own knowledge

This type of question often requires you to study a relatively high number of sources and to agree or disagree on a particular statement. These are frequently questions worth many marks!

List your knowledge which supports the statement

List your knowledge which does not support the statement

Look to the sources and add evidence from the sources to both your lists

You will know be in a position to write a balanced answer

Try not to sit on the fence - come to a conclusion!!

At least that convinced me that I THINK I used the correct method. I used contextual knowledge, plus cross-referencing. It just sort of puzzled me still, though. If I used the method which I think is correct, my conclusion will forever be agreed to a small extent. Still VERY confused!

It sounds logical too. The question they asked about usefulness is so broad and the source is like just a few lines. Ok, getting confused here again.

Next week is gonna be a very very busy week as I have a list of stuff not done.

Monday----

-The timetable is switched ( four periods of science and I am now stuck at the science worksheet )

-CIP at tan tock seng on Monday ( must practice scores and will be back very late! )

Tuesday----

-Lessons will end at 10.45pm on tuesday ( after that dunno got what activity, go back home must prepare for geog test and I mean MEMORISE and do TIME PRACTICE on my own)

Wednesday----

-I have to stay back for choir practice although I dun feel like it and I am really considering to pon it. ( We are only learning daemon what, I can go home and learn and I WILL LEARN IT! Must revise for geog test what. That practice also not official )

Thursday-----

-Geog test ( die le! How to finish on time???? )

Friday-----

-National day celebration, cross country running, later choir barbecue

And not to mention!

the science quiz on waves to chiong next week, plus the geog test.

the chem project coming up

plus my piano and violin exam coming up

and the deadline of memorising choir scores!

I am going mad! So stressed! ARGH!!!!!!

Oh, just to add, I FLUNK all my common tests so far. *** ***'s maths so pro! Dun deny it ok? Everybody are strong in one thing or another and I am left with none.

Trusting in God to help me finish all these ****

Joanna (:

2008-07-20T05:00:00.000-07:00

TYPE YOUR FIRST NAME WITH YOUR...

1. FINGERS: Joanna

2. CHIN: I am not doing this, cannot bend down.

3. ONE FINGER, EYES CLOSED: joznna

4. ELBOW: mjolazn n a

5. NOSE: I am also not doing this

6. PALM: jlozqa n naz

1.List four fandoms you have.
What is this?

2. Have you ever slept in the back of a car?
Yeah

3. Have you recently dyed your hair/cut it?
Nope

4. List four people that you look up to the most.
God, Mummy, Daddy, Buggy or as Yan Jun calls her, Hippoportee

5. How many pets do you own as of now?
No pets. I hate grimalkins

6. Which do you prefer white or black?
Black!!!!!!!!!

7. Who is your most played character?
Penguin??? What is most played character?

8. Choose one or the other, not both: Being stuck on an island with a friend, or Being stuck on an island with 5 acquaintances?
Being stuck on an island with God!

9. Name three aspects that tell who you are.
Christian, megalifer, dumanian. Is that what aspect is?

10. If you could have a power what would it be?
I have power! Godly power, using my gifts to serve God.

11. Who was the last person you talked to?
Erm, I am not really sure. Mummy perhaps.

12. Who was the last person you said "I love you" to?
God

13. Write down the first five words that pop into your head:
Huh?
Five
words?
Oh.
Lame

14. What's one thing you wish you could do better?
Fulfilling my calling. I feel stagnant in my walk with God. I need to position myself for the impact to move out of my comfort zone and IMPACT

15. Do you like the way you are?
I don’t really know, but GOD LOVES ME!

16. Choose, summer or winter:
What time is it? Summer time, it is our vacation!

17. Rain or snow:
Snow lah, rain is common in Singapore.

18. Water or ice?
ICE. Love ice skating although never skate before.

19. List two odd things about yourself:
I am going to fail
Anything that can go wrong will go wrong

20. Who are two of your bad habits:
This question has a grammatical error. It should be what!
Anyway, my bad habits are being impatient and slacking

21. What's 1 of your biggest pet peeve?

What is a pet peeve?

22. Six people to do this quiz……

I will not force you to do, it will be good if you will do

Oh ya, I am stuck at doing the history letter writing world war 2 Japanese thing. Finished my advertisment and the thick thick notes, Yea!

Joanna (:

2008-07-18T07:00:00.000-07:00

Hello everyone, just to clarify, I said the deleting blog thing in a fit of "anger". I am not really deleting it.

After the maths test incident, I am going to add the murphy's law as one of the important quotes in my life now. I can't help thinking and regretting about it. Well, my fault, I was too complacent. This should be a lesson to wake me up from my slumber.

Murphy's law

1.Nothing is as easy as it looks.

2.Everything takes longer than you think.

3.Anything that can go wrong will go wrong.

4.If there is a possibility of several things going wrong, the one that will cause the most damage
will be the one to go wrong. Corollary: If there is a worse time for something to go wrong, it will happen then.

5.If anything simply cannot go wrong, it will anyway.

6.If you perceive that there are four possible ways in which a procedure can go wrong, and circumvent these, then a fifth way, unprepared for, will promptly develop.

7.Left to themselves, things tend to go from bad to worse.

8.If everything seems to be going well, you have obviously overlooked something.

9.It is impossible to make anything foolproof because fools are so ingenious.

10.Every solution breeds new problems.

From this, you can tell that Murphy is a very pessimistic person and he made me one as well.

Joanna :)

2008-07-13T03:08:00.000-07:00

Hello, I am going to share some videos with you. If you are free, please watch it! I love this show very much as it is about LAW! I want to be a lawyer next time, so I should watch some law shows. I sincerely hope that you will have the patience to watch it!

This is the theme song for when rules turn loose. Sorry if the download a bit slow!

This is one of my favourite part of this series. Happy watching!

Oh ya, if you dun understand cantonese, then too bad! Blueh!

Joanna

2008-07-11T13:33:00.000-07:00

I just don't understand everything! Why is it that I can change so fast and not even realise? Am I useless now?

Maybe I shall start from the beginning so that you all can better understand what I am talkng about. Today in maths lesson, Mr Hia was teaching on a topic called mensuration. He was teaching on cones, giving us a worksheet to practice on volume and surface area of cones and cylinders. I don't know what happened to me today. I stared at the worksheet as if it was some sort of language that I don't understand.

It took me a bit of time to digest the question and it took me even more time to solve this question, the volume of the cone. I made a careless mistake and my whole answer is wrong. I got the second question wrong too! I mistaken the slice for the cylinder! What has happened to me? I am so worried!

When Mr Hia is going through the surface area of the cone, pie r square + pie r l, then I got confused why the both Rs are different. I don't understand what l is at all until I realised that it is actually the slant height. What has happened to me? I am not like that last time. Why has everything gone blury and I don't understand anything that Mr Hia is talking about?

Since after the holidays, when Mr Hia began the first lesson on maths, I kept on making careless mistakes or misread the question. I very rarely got a whole question correct. I have changed. My maths standard has deproved. I am failing and I don't know what is happening!

Help! Can somebody tell me the answer that I am looking for? I am very frightened about the things around me! I am scared that I will fail my maths! Maths is very important! I really don't know what to do? Can somebody help me?

Joanna

2008-07-06T12:21:00.000-07:00

Yo people, i am blogging again! Did this quiz long long ago, but then decided to post it since everyone is posting. Please note that it was done LONG LONG AGO! :)

001What's the connection between you and the last person that called you?
erm, nobody called me like since before my operation……

002. Do you ever turn your cell phone off?
no, I don’t see the point

003. What happened at 10.00am today?
I was doing the maths quiz in moodle???

004. When did you last cry?
Yesterday when I was bathing, my wound hurts……

005. What is your favorite thing to eat with peanut butter?
Bread, I eat it everyday

006. What do you want in your life right now?
Go megalife!!!! I did not go for two weeks!!!

007. Do you carry an umbrella when it rains, or just put up your hood?
Umbrella of course, who bothers a hood?

008. What's your favorite thing to have on your bed?
Ee yore, my pillow and bolster??

009. What bottom are you wearing now?
Haha, still in my pyjamas, pastor joyce’s fave!!!

010. Whats the nicest text in your inbox say?
something about God’s great love for us

011. One happy thing today.
Knowing that God sent Jesus to die on the cross for me.

012. Are you wearing anything you borrowed from someone?
Obviously not…..,

013. What was the last movie you caught?
that is like a super long ago thing. Let me think, shrek 3? Going to watch Narnia soon.

014. What are you proud of?
Jesus living in me all the time

015. What does the oldest text message in your inbox say?
I deleted my message immediately, so nothing.

016. What was the last song you sang out loud?
Shuang Zi Xing

017. Do you have any nicknames?
yes, no need to elaborate

018. What does your last received text message say?
no problem (Jia Mei)

019. What time did you go to bed last night?
Sometime between 8 and 8.30pm.

020. Are you currently happy?
I don’t really know

021. Who gives you best advice?
God, second is Ms Ling.

022. Do you eat whipped cream straight from the can?
Oops, what is that?

023. Who did you talk on phone last night?
nobody……

024. Is anything bugging you right now?
yes, my holiday homework, but I surrendered it to God already. Still, one can’t help worrying

025. What/Who was the last thing/person to make you laugh?
my sister, she called me an ibu harimau which means mu lao hu.

026. Do you wear toe socks?
what are they????

027. Who was the last person you missed a call from?
my mother I think…. Short term memory one lah, me!!!

028. Have you ever had your heartbroken?
Yes, but I am alright now as God is a healer of broken hearts.

029. What annoys you most in a person?
Arrongance, thinking that she is very clever or acting it, meaning or not.

030. Do you have a crush on anyone?
currently no!

031. Have you ever done cocaine?
I must admit that my vocabulary is lousy. What is that????

032. What is the colour of your room?
Pink

033. Would you kill someone you hate for a billion dollar?
In the ten commandments, it said “do not murder”.

034. Do you believed in the saying "talk in cheap"?
How do you do that?

035. Who was the last person to lay in your bed?
Me lah, asking the obvious!

036. Who was the last person to hug you?
My beloved Mummy

037. Did anyone see the last person you kissed?
the last person I kissed was mummy and nobody in my family was paying attention.

038. Do you have a life?
What type of question is this?

039. Have you ever think someone died, when they really didn't?
no

040. What is the reason behind your blog song?
I want to have a spiritual break free from my life

041. Who was the last person you saw in your dream?
Shirlyn. We were in the zoo together singing the barney I love you song.

042. Last time you smiled?
I am grinning right now.

043. Have you changed this year?
Time passes and people change. Everybody will change.

044. What are you listening to right now?
Me typing on the keyboard.

045. Are you talking to someone when you doing this?
No

046. Do you walk with your eyes open or closed?
Does this mean to be a trick question?

047. Is there a quote you live by?
There are lots but I like this one: Love the live that you are living and live the one life that is truly worth living. Ming wrote that on my birthday card. Remembered it always.

048. Do you want someone you can't have?
I have Jesus and he is all I need.

049. Have you ever played an instrument?
Yes, recorder, gu zheng, guitar,drum, piano, violin. Played it!!!!!!!!

050. What was the worst idea you've had in week?
Can’t remember

052. Are you happy with your love life right now?
I don’t have a love life.

053. What song describe your love life?
Are you deaf? I don’t have a love life!

054. Does the person know that you like him/her?
Shut up about love life!!!!

055. Who always make you laughs?
myself!

056. Do you speak other language other than English?
Yes, Chinese and hor gai languages

057. Are you blonde?
No, a true brunette.

058. What your middle name?
I am not a blonde!

059. What are you doing tomorrow?
going to watch Narnia and going LTA.

060. What do you think you are like?
Irritating!!!

061. Who will you choose to die with?.
I prefer to die alone and see Jesus!

062.Where have you been today?
at home

063. What game do you play often?
club penguin, better than lame maple.

064. Who are you missing right now?
buggy lor, go on holiday, leave me behind!!!! Sobs!

065. If you've to choose between friends & love, who will you choose?
Hmm, they are both important!

066. What are you doing right now?
doing this quiz that never seem to end!

067. Which primary school are you from?
gongshang primary, nice school with a principal who thought that century square is fortune square.

068. Name 3 colours that you like.
black and black only

069. What emotion you like to show?
everything under the sun.

070. What is life to you?
fulfilling my purpose.

071. If you have something troubling you, what will you do?
tell God about it, pray and ask him to guide me.

072. Who did you last chat in msn today?
nobody, busy doing this thing.

073. Who do you admire the most?
my saviour. He did something that I would never ever have the courage to do.

074. Which month are you born in?
July!!!!!!

075. How are you feeling right now?
guilty, I should be doing maths!

076. What is the time now?
12.21pm

077. Where are you now?
at home, in the living room.

078. What colour did you use to dye hair?
my hair is a natural brunette colour.

079. Why are you doing this test?
because I decided to take a break from maths.

080. What do you do when you're moody?
talk to God

081. At which age you wish to get marry?
to be honest, I don’t ever want to marry.

082. Who is more important to you? Boyfriend or friends?
Friends!

083. Do you think you have enough confidence?
no, that is why I need God to give it to me.

084. Who is the person you trust the most?
I don’t trust in any person, I trust in God and God only.

086. If you can have a dream come true, what would it be?
world salvation! Then Christ will come back!

087. What is your goal for this year?
to do my best in my studies and in choir and at least save a soul.

088. Do you believe in eternity love?
Only God can do that!

089. What feeling do you love most?
security and liberation!

090. Do you really think its Global Warming now?
Course lah!

091. What feeling you hate the most?
insecurity and condemnation.

092. Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?
not every, sad to say.

093. Do you believe in God?
I am a CHRISTIAN

094. Who cares for you the most?
God

095. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
that I am a CHRISTIAN

096. What'll you bring when you fight?
what fight???

097. What have you regretted doing in your whole life?
God saved me and gave me a new life. I regret nothing.

098. What would you feel that nobody no longer cares for you?
I don’t even get this question!

099. What if your stead two-timed you?
This either.

100. DO YOU HATE THIS SURVEY?
This is lame!!!!!!

Oh ya, Joanna stands for God is gracious! Bye

Joanna :)

2008-07-05T15:27:00.000-07:00

Yesterday has been a great day. Went to school for youth day celebration. The games were quite fun, I like the bowling thing where you have to throw a tennis ball at the cans a few metres away. There is this game which I find very weird and funny. Shirlyn's game! I did not try it. Yan Jun, Yen Han, Annabelle and Ling Min tried it. You have to sit on the balloon which contains flour and whoever sits the fastest winis. Annabelle almost cannot burst the balloon, LOL

We just kept on trying the games at the track and had a great time. Our class went to redeem a basketball. Later we had the concert. I sat on the chair, away from 2A! Sobs! I love the break dance! When I recover, I must learn it. Loves the headspin too!!!! There is choir later, ate lunch alone, nobody wanted to eat with me. Went to LT3 to wait for the choir practice to start. (It is good to be way ahead of time)

Choir was fun! Despite not going for choir camp, I still managed to catch up in the songs that choir sang. I AM NOT GOING VIENNA! Such a wonderful oppurtunity and I am going to miss it! I feel sad :( Anyway, we did lots of stretches (I did not do of course) and it was kind of fun. Mr Tay asked me to check if other choristers did correctly. Did not spot any major mistakes though. We sang salve regina and a chinese song, ri4 wong1 du2 za2, very nice :) I love choir practice!

After that, mummy called to say that daddy cannot fetch me because he has a last minute meeting. Shirlyn's mummy offered to send me to kembangan MRT station. THANKS a lot! Slept in the car as I was really very tired. Day over <3

I love the hong kong drama series when rules turn loose. Shen Yi Yan and Dick very cute!!!

blog till here

Joanna

2008-07-03T14:06:00.000-07:00

Ok, hi everyone, today is the first day since I made my blog public. Actually I did not actually delete my blog, just heehee, took a long break so I changed my URL but now I am back to blogging!!! (you should be happy for me) Anyway, I just finished IDMI and have a lot of stuff to catch up like holiday homework! Due to this, I will not be blogging too often.

For some recent updates, I went for the history fieldtrip last Saturday. The calling buggy thing is super scary. Anyway, I love the fieldtrip very much, like the bestest of the bestest, especially the battle box and the nice ceremony. Only the lunch break too short, had not even eaten finished my miserable burger, then Ms Ling come and hurry me. I felt quite tired after the fieldtrip so I did not go megalife. Somemore that day is when megalife is moving up to worship centre!!! Oh no! I missed that celebration. Once in a lifetime you know!!!!

IDMI was rather slackish and I mean it, seriously. My group was rather quiet, even eat lunch also never talk. LOL! Anyway, this year's IDMI is rather easy to do, not like last year's IDMI. My throat like got some kind of problem you know. My voice sounds so horrible and hoarse. I don't even know when I will recover. Tomorrow is youth day and I still have to stay back for choir! I will be very behind time! Missed the whole choir camp because of my operation. I will try to catch up and be a good senior and junior in choir.

God has a destiny for me

It is found in my B-I-B-L-E

I can make a history

By living the word of God in me

Joanna (:

loves God

2008-06-27T02:50:00.000-07:00

Are You:
1) Perfect?
No one is perfect.

2) Tall?
I am not trying to boast here, average height J
3) In your pyjamas?

Yes, haha
4) Left Handed?
I am in fact ambidextrous, although my handwriting seemed like P1 when I write with my left hand

Last:
1) Friend you saw?
Wei Min

2) talked to on phone:
Mummy. Second last is Ms Ling and it was super scary. She seemed angry with me so I shall not talk anymore.

3) person to text you:
Grace, I asked her about history fieldtrip.

4) was today better than yesterday?
Today is a gift from God, that is why we call it the present

Favourite:
1) Number: 7, best with lots of 7s as it is holy

2) Colour: black, I love it and do not allow anyone to wear it. BUGGY!!!

3) Food: Nothing, I am a greedy pig and I love all types of food. Exceptions ……

4) Place: Church or in God’s presence

5) Singer: I don’t have one currently

6) Hobby: Serving God

Ten random facts:

1) I am a Christian
2) I love God
3) God is holy
4) God is good
5) God is love
6) God is forgiving
7) God is my father
8) God is great
9) God is awesome
10) God loves JOANNA!!!!!

2008-06-26T01:35:00.000-07:00

It is a long time since I posted, been super not in a blog mood and I must have abandoned my blog. I don't know what has happened to me!!! I just don't feel like doing homework, touching it or something. I am still left with geog, chinese blog and google sketchup. I really do not feel like doing any homework! That is so unlike me. I normally love homework. :(

Well, as I was telling buggy, people change and things change too. Not surprising actually. Am really slacking, I dun know why. Logging in to moodle, just trusting in God. In a super bad mood

Joanna :)

2008-03-30T19:29:00.000-07:00

Megalife service was awesome! We started a new series on growing up, speaker Ernie, whose parents were attending megalife, which was kind of weird. Anyway, he preached to us about independance. The ability to make your own choice is a God-given ability and at a certain age, everybody will want to make their own choices in life.

Many people may think that your decisions shape your world.

They are wrong!

Your world shapes your decision.

The environment that you grow up in, the school you grow to, the friends you have are all important factors that affect your decision. If the ability to make your own choices is a God-given ability, does that mean that I can do anything that I want to do?

NO

"If you create an act, you create a habit. If you create a habit, you create character. If you create a character, you create a destiny."

Making decisions are very important. Just a slip in your mind and you may end up in a place that you don't want to be. That will be quite terrible. Won't it?

Firstly, in order to make the right decisions, we need to honour and respect the authorities above us. That includes the government and teachers, church leaders and parents. Ernie gave us some very good examples, like remembering your leader's birthday and stuff.

I remembered Pastor Joyce's and Ming's. YAY! Jo rocks!!! You know how I remember? Pastor Joyce's birthday was the day that I got baptized so like, I sort of remembered. Novemember 18th. See? You have such a wonderful megalifer! LOL

I still remembered that on that day, we sort of barged into the staff room and sang Happy Birthday song to her. She was like stunned and..... I love Pastor Joyce!!! :)

We should also respect our friends even if they are not true. I firmly believe that not one of my friends are true. Even I am not a true friend, sad to say. I am working on it okay?

"The righteous should choose his friends carefully, for the way of the wicked leads them astray." Proverbs 12:26

A true friend is a friend to my destiny. A true friend is a friend that is Godly. I want a Godly friend, besides God. God is a fantastic friend, but i want somebody else, who can walk with me and talk with me wherever I go. God is wonderful, and I thank him for that.

For some weird reason, I have been skipping cells since the start of this month. I don't know the reason. Yesterday, so many cell members have asked me if I was staying for cell. I was really not in the mood, sorry. Sorry tiziana, heather, jae, sherwyn, shawn, samuel, dorethea and many more whom I have forgotten. I want to go cell, I feel that the Lord has been calling me back to cell. Yay, in cell, I feel loved.

There are only two places where I feel real Godly love. One is in church, either service or cell. The other is when I am spending time with God, be it praying or doing quiet time. Thanks God!

I am in a state where I am not looking forward to tomorrow. I sense that it will be a bad day, with bad things happening. I have a feeling that I will see Ahem tomorrow and I don't wish to. Oh dear, is that what the devil is doing?

Lord, hear my cry.

Joanna

2008-03-28T17:34:00.000-07:00

Ok, I just read ming's post on being happy even when you are not happy. I wasn't really blog hopping but I was visiting the cell's blog to gain inspirations and then i just felt like reading his blog.

Cool right?

You must be happy and laugh even when you are not. It will make you happy. It sounds like shit but I am really going to try it. Been feeling down these past few days. Ahem is angry with me. That was not my assumption. I can sense it somehow.

I shall try laughing everytime when a sad thing occurs. People may think that I am crazy, but I know that I am not. Like, I discovered that I am the only trying to find a solution to the Chinese acting thing, instead of groaning like I normally will, I am laughing.

It helps you know?

You should really try it.

People change when time change. I was stupid to think that people will stay the same way forever. Now I know my mistake. I have been down for the past few days because of this reason. After reading MEGAMING's post, I have decided not to brood over it and be happy. Happiness makes me happy!!!

Lots of people do not know why Ahem is angry with me. Actually, I lied the whole time. She may not be angry with me, but I am certainly angry with Ahem. It is a reason that I do not wish to share with anybody, least of all blog about it.

I did not see Ahem on Thursday, yea!!! Maybe it was because I prayed about it???

Am on the verge of recovering from a series of weird illness. Have to miss sports day because of it. Joanna must recover!!

When I wake up in the morning, I feel down, thinking about Ahem. Now, I am happy!!!

Thanks Wei Ming!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

The day is over

Joanna

2008-03-22T12:26:00.000-07:00

Good Friday service was fun yesterday, very fun! The theme was eternity, but I still think that the megalife theme is nicer. Our theme is Stolen!!! Even Ms Ling also agrees that our theme is nicer. Saw Ms Ling yesterday and got a bit shock. It was quite unexpected. I was like standing with daddy and Vina to wait for the worship centre to open, then suddenly Ms Ling was standing right in front of me.

I was like, er...... hi Ms Ling. Then she was like having a broad grin on her face, facial expression like: I told you I will spot you. The day before, we were chatting on msn and then Ms Ling was like saying she sure will spot me, then I a bit uncertain because in the atrium, there were lots of people, but she still managed to spot me in the end. She was wearing spectacles, she look kind of cute with it, like more intelligent, haha.

Then she went to the riverside resource and got engrossed reading a very thick book. I was like watching the rock fish shown on the television screen in riverside resource and they were like doing funny actions that are even worse than hi 5 so I laughed like crazy outside the book cum gift stall but Ms Ling, being too engrossed, did not hear me!!!!

Then we went up to the worship centre and pastor Joseph gave a welcome speech. The worship was a bit slow but ok. The drama was super nice! Geraldine acted like super good and cute! I really pity Lisa and now want Ms Ling to come online to chat with her about that, but she never.

I realised that whenever I want Ms Ling to be online, or like I want to find her, then she cannot be found. Then when I dun want to, then I will like bump into her on the corridor or something. It is a bit irritating. Anyway, pastor Vincent was preaching on the easter message and his message was exactly the same as last's year.

Even the God and men diagram also the same, the picture of the men also the same. Then he gave the lame example of Wei Ming and Wei Shi doing the I love daddy act again. I heard it like thousands of times. Anyway, thanks God for sending Jesus to die on the cross for me. I love you!

Forget to say, I love Ms Ling too!!!

Joanna

2008-03-08T10:09:00.000-08:00

This whole week has been ok, with just a few depressing stuff. Got full marks for the history colonialism source based and that sort of cheered my day up. Had a short talk with Ms Ling on the way to the HOD room. Her last sentence was," if you have anything you want to tell me, feel free to come and talk to me."

I took advantage of her last sentence and like kept passing by the HOD room yesterday during kaleidoscope. I think she a bit pissed off by us. Choir concert was ok, only felt very sad at the end when Ms Tham scolded us, almost cried out lound lah, nobody had any idea how much effort I had put into the concert, revising my scores DAILY the past few weeks you know!!!

Instead of like getting praised or something, I got scolded. Still got choir auditions which will be like job interview, sian lor!

Sherlyn can come for easter! I am so happy! But all she remembered like for last year's easter was the chocolate fondue. Diao! Must refresh her memories this easter! When I told Ms Ling that Sherlyn cannot stay for cell, then she was like," Cell only makan what, nothing one. Don't pressurised her first, let her go for service."

Erm, cell got lots of things besides makan ok? I think Ms Ling got a bit jealous of our chocolate fondue thing. A priviledged to megalifers. Some people from our church came to our school on thursday to film a short part of easter video. Sherlyn wanted Ms Ling to act. Lame right?

Cell chalet yesterday, did not go. Went to library to borrow books for the holidays. Failed my LA test so must study in the holidays. Maybe going for cycling trip in the holidays to excercise my legs. Yay! Ms Ling lent us the history book, can read! I love Singapore History!!!!!

Today got megalife again! Lokking forward to it. Prayer chain like got a bit of problem because Bridget never sms me but nevermind. We can start all over again.

Post till here and bye............... Joanna

2008-02-29T18:25:00.000-08:00

Shall just emphasize on one thing. There is a terrorist out on the lose and please pray hard for Singapore. Read the papers and found out that he is a JI leader and had some contacts in Indonesia. Was behind a plot in using a hijacked plane to crash into Changi Airport so pray hard!!!

Joanna

2008-02-16T10:20:00.000-08:00

Why is life so full of twists and turns that you never know what is going to happen? Why is life so full of nasty shocks and surprises, things you never expect to happen to you? Why is life so miserable, with days after days full of misery? Why am I filled with only one emotion everyday? Have all my other emotions turned into stone? I feel sadness. Happy? Is there such a word? Why isn't it in my vocabulary at all?

I started out this year full of high hopes, hoping to achieve better things than last year, hoping to learn more than I have ever before. Why is everybody opposing me? I am trying hard to be good, why why is everybody saying that I am bad? I just want to be a carefree person, but why do things not turn out the way I wanted?

Everybody is accusing me, no one is believing in me. I felt depressed many a times, and saw no one by me to comfort me and cheer me up. Whenever I felt depressed, I will always look at the clear blue sky above my head, taking comfort that God is always watching out for me. It helps. I do not feel so sad anymore. But, this happiness never last.

I always started the day, full of anticipation of exciting events either in school, my personal life or with my friends. I was always disappointed. Things did not turn out the way I want it to be. I was hit a major blow last year in November. I was really very depressed and cried almost everyday before coming to terms with it. My family members tried to cheer me up. I knew they put in a lot of effort but nobody will really understand. Thank God now I am ok.

That major blow left a great hole in my heart. I know that in a matter of years, my heart will be filled with holes, and it will be broken. I decided not to let that major blow break my heart and decided to live my life normally like any other teenager. I failed. Events in life left many holes in my heart. Big holes which can never be mended.

I cried over things that people may think small but are great and huge things to me. I don't know the reason, but I think the closest answer that I can think of was that my heart was filled with lots and lots of holes. Holes that I wanted so much to mend but knew that it can never be mended, never.

Why am I running a lifelong race, but do not have any supporters to cheer me on? Why am I walking endlessly in a tunnel but do not see light anywhere? Why am I swimming frantically in a torpedo? Why am I stranded on an island which has no way out? Why am I being pushed by a strong current which does not stop at all? I felt like giving up. Life is misery. I could not do anything about it. I don't know how to control my life. I am reaching the point of threshold and I knew that once I reached it, I can never turn back.

People make me depressed. my depressness are all caused by outside factors. I know that. If I am the only human on earth, I will not be the state that I am in now. I cared too much on what people think of me. I did not want them to get the wrong idea about me and tried to explain to them. They didn't want to listen. I know that now.

From now on, I DON'T WISH, DON'T WANT, and DON'T CARE of how people want to think of me anymore. They can wrongly accuse me for all I care but as long as my conscience is clear, I can sleep without worries. That shall be my motto in life......

Joanna

2008-02-01T11:56:00.000-08:00

Hi, it's me again. I have come to make my blog lively. Thanks Yan Jun and Sherlyn for flooding my tagboard. I encourage more people to do so. Sherlyn spread her abit abit disease to me and people are starting to get irritated. LOL

Went for a talk with Miss Ling in some air-conditioned room with Sherlyn and we were like all laughing, haha. Did not go for choir, oops as I got got tuition that day. Wan Si said that it was not official so I don't have to take leave form.

Yesterday, I went to National University Hospital to select a date for my operation. It was a bit fun you know. When I first reached the hospital, I was brought to a scoliosis consultant room and the doctor was telling me about the risk of my surgery and bla bla bla. He then measured my spine by asking me to bend down and recorded my measurements.

I had a 43 degree curve on my thoracic spine and a 34 degree curve on my lower back spine. The doctor then said lots of stuffs about puberty but then I was not really listening and was like looking round the room and playing with my sister.

He then asked me if I would like to donate blood and I told him that I am underage and underweight. He told me that weight was not important and to donate blood, you just need to be heavier than 25kg. When I heard that, I was like...... not knowing what to say.

I thought I just went to the bloodbank a week before and learnt that you must be at least 16 years old and weigh at 45kg to donate blood? When did the requirement change? I asked the doctor about it and he insisted that his answer was correct. I was really too confused to probe further.

I know what you all must be thinking. Why am I donating blood? The reason is because the doctor said that if I take blood from the bloodbank, I might get some type of disease or my body would reject the blood and it may be fatal. The diseases are HIV, hepatitis B and C and a very long name which I had forgotten.

No doubt that the blood had already been screened but there is still a window period and just to be on the save side, I decided to donate my own blood. Quite cool right?

Then, I was brought to another room where 2 nurses helped to choose the date for my operation. The date is on 27th of May which means that I will be skipping choir camp. I also have to go to NUH on 20th May to take the bending x ray test to determine if I am the suitable candidate for the keyhole surgery so I will not be going to school on that day.

After that, the nurses told me to choose my ward class. I wanted a C class ward but in the end, we chose a B2 ward. The estimated total fee added up to about $11 000. HELP! The nurses there arranged me to be in a children's ward so that one of my parents can stay over in the hospital for the night. I will also get more care from the nurses than if I stayed in the children's ward. I think I really needed that.

Counting the days to my operation, approximately 4 more months. Time flies indeed! Blog till here now.

Will update soon :)

Joanna

2008-01-25T13:27:00.000-08:00

Hihi, was like so long not posting any stuff. Today started out quite normal and then after that.............. was very emo. When I say emo, i mean it!!! It was like, my science teacher practically said " WHAT THE HELL" a few times in a period of science lesson! I call that a serious thing, very very serious offence.

Fancy a teacher saying a cursing word! I don't even say that in my daily life!

Anyway, back to the topic I was very shocked and like..... ya. One day, in science lesson, our dear teacher made us do pumping cause we were late! Let me tell you something! SHE
DOESN'T HAVE THE RIGHT TO DO IT!

The day before, my LA teacher said almost the same thing, only he said " GO TO HELL " What's the difference? Anyway, for some reason which I will not say, I cried during like the whole of recess with Sherlyn. Haha! Meet somebody which I won't say who and Sherlyn poured out everything to her. Was crying like literally the whole time so nvm.......

When I went back to class at last, was like crying even more and I was literally sobbing when I went back to class. The class was quite surprised especially Mr Tan Kian Boon. Haha! Alright now! Maybe the reason why I broke down was because of :

1. Extreme stress
2. Bad teachers
3. Operation coming! ( Scared, anyway, trust in God)
4. Quiting violin
5. Choir stress

Still got a lot but then I think I am being chased out of the com lab.

So bye.
Joanna xDs

Doing a continuation of my previous post at home as I still need to blog!!! Firstly, I am really really sorry about not controlling my emotions well yesterday.(pls note not I am typing this thing the day after) I don't know what happened to me. Anyway, Mrs Chia was really quite nice about it although I was like crying the whole time.

The funny thing is, Sherlyn thought that I was crying because of Mdm Rozanna but I was not. When we found out, we were like laughing for a long time, not able to stop. What Ms Ling said indeed come through. Sherlyn assumed and she made an ass out of her and me. LOL

Actually, I do hope that the school will really do something about some of the teachers teaching 2A. I am not entirely happy at the way they behave and I really want the school to do something about it. I have a feeling that no one will take action and I will have to bear with them the whole year round. Why didn't I treasure my teachers last year? Mr Soh and Ms Tan, you all were really good teachers. :(

Enough of unhappy stuff! We went to the blood bank yesterday and it was really very fun. When we reached there, we were ushered into the auditorium where we were shown some power point slides. I took lots of notes (not because I am hardworking but because I need to write a compulsary reflection about this trip).

Actually, I really learnt lots of things from the blood bank. Its all in my notes. Some interesting facts that I learn:

1. 55% of Singapore population are within the age requirement to donate blood.

2. The irony is, only 1% are blood donors.

3. Blood cannot be manufactured. Only humans can give blood to humans. Animal blood cannot be transfered to humans.

4. 300 units of blood are needed everyday. (one unit is 450 ml)

5. Percentage of blood groupings in Singapore

O ---- 42%

B ---- 28%

A ---- 24%

AB --- 6%

haha, those are some of the facts that I learnt from the powerpoint slides. Cool right? The interesting thing is, I don't even know what my blood group is. I hope to be O as I can donate blood to all people. I stand 42% chance, lol

At the end of the talk in the auditorium, this is my conversation with the guide:

Me: How much blood must a person receive after a major operation?

Guide: It depends on what the operation is.

Me: What if it's a spine surgery?

Guide: I'm not sure but then for transplant, it depends on a person. Sometimes, he or she will even need 80 to 100 units of blood.

Me: What happens of that person don't get enough blood?

Guide: That person will certainly die.

Do you know that after I heard that, I could have fainted! Now I must urge the whole of Singapore to donate as much blood as possible. You all have 5 months more! Haha, I think I am nuts but I was really scared then. Luckily as a Christian, I can rely on God and trust in him to take care of me. It's great being a Christian.

After the brief introductory talk, another guide took our group around the bloodbank. Sherlyn took a blood test to check her haemoglobin level and she insisted that it was not pain. I believe her but my other classmates were like putting on a scared look when the nurse squeezed the blood out of Sherlyn's hand. it was actually quite funny.

Next, we saw the process of how the blood is being donated and a guy who is donating blood said he had already been donating blood for 15 years and that was his 60th donation. Cool right? We begin asking him lots of questions about the needle and he assured us that it did not hurt a bit. Lots of people did not believe him though.

After that we had a quiz and I went home with Wei Min. That was about all. Oh ya, got to miss choir that day and was super unlucky as next monday will be the choir concert auditions. Christians reading my blog, pray for me ya? Anyway, will try my best and bye.

Joanna :)

2007-11-20T23:27:00.000-08:00

Hi, Joanna here again. Sorry for not updating for a very very long period of time. Shirlyn, why never blog???

Anyway, I wanted to share some pictures......

haha, Nicole and I in the pool before being baptised by Pastor Vincent and Pastor David, wearing the I have decided T shirt :)

Yea. have just been baptised by pastor David and it was so fun! The water was very cold though :)

Jolene and I holding our baptism certificates after we had changed. Say " cheese! "

Hi, standing with my family and taking pictures. That day was the 18th of November and it was also pastor Joyce's birthday. Sang happy birthday to her :)

2007-08-10T20:36:00.000-07:00

Joanna here again. I am in a super bad mood this past few weeks so I have not been posting. Mainly because my academics results have like dropped super a lot so I am very depressed. Been in my room studying these past few days, making good use ( i hope) of my time in the holidays. But, I have a feeling that I will fail my science test next week! My past science test had been a diaster and I hope that my coming one wun be!
So stressed lor, should have white hairs! lol anyway, hope u all will wish me good luck. Now I have an obseesion, with high school musical 2! Coming up on disney channel, but then I never subscribed so...... sad lor. I was like randomly listening to their songs in youtube then I realised that their song is like quite good. And zac (troy) sings like so nice lor.
I like the song you are the music in me, so nice! Haha, really obsessed!
Ahh, yesterday area fun day, did not go! Stayed at home to study study study. Must lah, I realised that science is so difficult you know! Strange that only I think so. Maybe I am weird, but I am having a very serious problem catching up with it! Driving me mad! Like, I have a serious problem understanding why sucrose solution diffuses better than water through a potato and about the cell sap thing. So confusing can?
Shall not talk about it already, seriously driving me mad! Interesting thing, my sister's violin bow broke and it was so funny, haha. Yesyerday at tuition was also very funny. There was this plump lady, who kept entering our classroom because the boys were like so noisy and she said lots of not supposed to be funny things but we were all laughing. I cried with laughter you know. the way she spoke was so.......... haha. Post till here, bye

2007-07-26T05:26:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY JOANNA!!! STAY HAPPY AND CUTE ALWAYS! (:
thanks for being such a wonderful best friend darling ;D enjoy your b'day kays? and remember,

KALEIDO-S-COPE! KALEIDOSCOPE! KALEIDOSCOPE! WOOOOOOOHHHH =D

hope you like my pressie! ^ ^ i am officially broke D: LOLOLOL
wheeeee choir tomorrow! singsingsing

sing it LOUD!

shirlynnnnnnn

2007-07-21T10:06:00.000-07:00

hi everyone, took lots of pictures recently and felt like sharing to you.

haha, that is yen han and me, disgusting right? We were in the bus, going to aero green for IDMI project.

Yen han, with your tongue sticking out you look rather cute.

This is our final product of our animal cell model. Nice isn't it?

Do you know, yen han's group was doing nerve cell and Nicole and I were singing a song about it. It goes like this

I love my nerve cell

I love my N-E-R-V-E-C-E-L-L

And I have N-E-R-V-E-S in my whole B-O-D-Y

And I will love my N-E-R-V-E-C-E-L-L very much

actually, it is a kiddy christian song lah, the words are

I am a C

I am a C-H

I am a C-H-R-I-S-T-I-A-N

And I have C-H-R-I-S-T in my H-E-A-R-T

And I will L-I-V-E--E-T-E-R-N-A-L-L-Y

Nice rite? Ok, post till here, see ya soon!

Joanna

2007-07-07T10:09:00.000-07:00

hi everyone, have not been posting for like since last month. Too busy lah, sad. But now, is a saturday but it is not any saturday but 070707. Cool rite? I only realise it when my mother told me. Ok, now to update our blog. Choir first.
Handover was over. I felt a bit emo that day too. Jing Qi is the president! Jia You! 永远支持你! haha, wish you all the best and God bless. Yesterday, me and Yi Ching composed a very nice and formal message to send to Mrs Loke as we, as usual, had forgotten to inform her that we cannot make it for choir next monday. It is really funny when we were composing it. I believe that it was the most formal message that I had ever composed. LOL
We changed Science teacher too, to a Mrs Christine Tan. Must get use to the change. Haha. Now then I realised that biology is actually very fun. We can play with microscope, a thing that I had not touch since primary 5. School is also very stress sometimes lah. Taking up Malay lang too! Good morning is Selamat Pagi, haha. I also learnt how to write my name in Japanese. Cool rite?
I just realised that I had exactly the same birthday date as Heather. 25th July, double cool rite?
haha.
Yipee, I am going to be baptize, hopefully with Jolene. If not, nvm. No matter wat, I want to be baptize this year, haha. Nubian Gents is coming up and I have not even successfully invited a single person. Wat shall I do???
At least seeing friends getting saved is a wonderful birthday present for me! haha. I have a feeling that it will be a super nice concert. Looking forward to it plus my birthday. haha. Stop here as still have chinese test to study. See you soon!
Joanna

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not shouting, "I'm clean living'."
I'm whispering, "I was lost,
Now I'm found and forgiven."

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I don't speak of this with pride.
I'm confessing that I stumble
and need Christ to be my guide.

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not trying to be strong.
I'm professing that I'm weak
And need His strength to carry on.

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not bragging of success.
I'm admitting I have failed
And need God to clean my mess.

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not claiming to be perfect,
My flaws are far too visible
But, God believes I am worth it.

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I still feel the sting of pain.
I have my share of heartaches
So I call upon His name.

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not holier than thou,
I'm just a simple sinner
Who received God's good grace, somehow!

2007-06-19T01:41:00.000-07:00

hello!!!! shirlyn here! OMG i owe joanna lots of posts O.o shall try to redeem them! firstly:
i'm sorry joanna about today...i thought you knew about it so i.... ._. i'm reallly realllllly SORRY ): i've just informed you of the recent one..hope it helped =/
second:
LOVE the neos we took! :D SUPER FUNNY HHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHA!
& try to cheer up joanna (; i'll be there for you <3! :D

will link everyone TODAY asap (:
love shirlyn-

2007-06-07T21:00:00.000-07:00

Am I putting God first? Am I? I really dun know how to answer myself. I have been asking myself this question ever since cell last saturday. I really cannot stand it anymore and really must blog about this. I think I am going on a downward spiral in my relationship with God. When I am blogging or msning, a voice in my head kept on telling me to read my OTC but then I always brush that voice aside.
That had never happened before. I always read my OTC no matter how busy I was. What has happened to me? Is the devil pulling me away from God? I am really troubled about this. I want to grow deeper in my relationship with him, not backslide away from him. Maybe it is because I feel so sian as there are homework and all to do. Actually, now OTC is really extremely boring, what with King Saul, Samuel, David and all that, the story line is very confusing.
For those of you who are interested, I am reading the old testament of the bible, book 1st Samuel, haha. I really need to put God first in anything I do, especially the holidays. I dun want to go through spiritual entrophy, but I want to come back to the heart of worship. I will perservere no matter wat happens. Lets impact megalife, riverlife, singapore and the world. Let us spread the gospel so that the massive tidal wave can hit the whole wolrd. Let the whole word know what Jesus did for us. Let us be history makers. God is waiting in heaven. He wants us to be living testimonies. He wants us to preach the gospel. We must do great things for him.
He did not create us for us to study and do what we want to do. He created us to have a relationship with us and to draw near us. So, whatever it is, we must put God first and not let any other things get in our way. God is mighty to save. Hallelujah, praise the Lord.

Joanna
Amen

2007-06-03T16:41:00.000-07:00

From the inside out

A thousand times I've failed
Still Your mercy remains
And should I stumble again
I'm caught in Your grace
Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame

Your will above all else
My purpose remains
The art of losing myself
In bringing You praise
Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame

In my heart and my soul
Lord I give You control
Consume me from the inside out
Lord let justice and praise
Become my embrace
To love you from the inside out

Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame
And the cry of my heart
Is to bring You praise
From the inside out
Lord my soul cries out

Joanna
Praise the Lord!
Amen

2007-06-02T13:19:00.000-07:00

Hi, i have not been posting for a very long time. I see an urgency to blog asap. Last Saturday, I went to attend the end time prophecies and it was super. I gave my notes to ***** and I must get them back from her today. I like the talk that Peter Tsukahira gave about God's tsunami the most. It is so nice! Jolene likes it too. I am gonna lend her the book soon, after I finished reading it.
Holidays now and I am so busy with homework. The teachers seemed to think that we are robots. Holidays are meant to rest, aren't they? haha, no offence to the teachers. Choir was bad, really bad. No offence to choir also k? I seem to be scared to write some things in blog, haha. Too paranoid. Anyway, wednesday, I admit that i was not 100% focus in choir. Got scolded by lydia and was super embarrassing, luckily, there is so many super mega nice friends like shirlyn, zhi ting and all those sops to comfort me. I feel a lot better after they comforted me, haha.
Then after choir we went to buy waffles and then that sellerasked us what cinamon is in chinese and we all dun know. Went back to check the dicky and realised that it is called rou gui. Should be correct lah.
Yesterday, tuition was very funny and boring, lol. That relief teacher just came in and saw the class noisy. Then he said SHUT UP at us and we were all laughing away. He told us not to laugh but that only made us all laugh even more, haha.
Last week I had my violin internal exam. I think I had 19 out of 21 for scales, i not very sure. I better get a distinction for it. Well, can't blog too much cause my homework is really a lot. See ya!

Joanna

2007-05-12T11:59:00.000-07:00

Just got back from level camp. The camp was really very fun and I enjoyed it a lot. Sad that it ended so fast. Our class really bonded like a class these four days. Haha. We went to several stations throughout Singapore: Silat, Ballroom dancing (my favourite), Gamelan, Bei Jing Opera and Indian dance. I like the ballroom dancing the most, but we minus ten points for that station because the boys dun wanna dance with the girls. LOL
Anyway, we danced waltz and jive. Made up my mind to learn ballroom dancing soon. Fusion night was fun too! We really cheered like crazy the whole night. Our efforts were not in vain as we emerged second in that competition.
We honestly thought we will lose you know! It was such a shock when we won. Bathing in camp was a serious problem. We were only allowed 5 minutes but everybody bathed like, 10 minutes, so there was quite a traffic jam in the toilet, haha. Some people even dun wanna bathe! Not me lah! Really sad it ended so fast lah. We also had our class tee on wednesday, I quite like it lah, haha. Actually now also very sian! Camp finish then next week have geog test, must memorise all the plate tectonics thing. What with all those faulting and folding and so on, I think I gonna fail it. Shirlyn, jia you for it k?
Joanna :) frenz forever

2007-05-12T02:38:00.000-07:00

hello shirlyn here! (:
yes yes it's ~~joanna~~me posting again!
firstly, i'm SICK...so i can't really do much...except revision...yups...& thanks joanna! jiayou too my dear (:
geog and french major test next week!! same day=thursday ): but jiayous okay? (:

What would you do if every time you wanted someone they would never be there?
What would you do if for every moment you were truly happy there would be 10 moments of sadness?
What would you do if your best friend died tomorrow and you never got to tell them how you felt?
So, I just wanted to say, even if I never talk to you again in my life, you are special to me and you have made a difference in my life.
I look up to you, respect you, and truly cherish you.
Send this to all your friends, no ma tter how often you talk, or how close you are, and send it to the person who sent it to you.
Let old friends know you haven't forgotten them, and tell new friends you never will. Remember, everyone needs a friend, someday you might feel like you have
NO FRIENDS at all, just remember this e-mail and take comfort in knowing some body out there cares about you and always will.
I'll Always Be There
In times of trouble,
In times of need,
If you are feeling SAD,
You can count on me.
I will give you a wink,
Until you smile,
give you a hug,
And stand by your side.
I'l l be there for you till the end,
I'll always and forever, be your
friend!
joanna, will <3>
changing blogskin! (:

2007-04-30T01:48:00.000-07:00

heelloooos! i'm ~~joanna~~shirlyn! yepp joanna and i are going to the WORLD PREMIERE MOVIE MARATHON! (: we went back together just now :D & we took pics of each other and put on wallpaper ;D sad is, i LOST MY WAY BACK HOME >.<><
did i tell you before? i have an obsession...no not ayumi hamasaki,fahrenheit or utada hikaru...it's AUDITIONSEA (: it's a dance to the beat game which i'm going to play now...<3>
will blog about movie marathon plus pics :) till then!

shirlyn and joanna <3>
HEHES

2007-04-29T15:31:00.000-07:00

I am now feeling very dun know wat. I dun even know how to describe myself. I think I had lots of mixed feelings now. I just read Shirlyn's blog about that moody stuff and then it made me felt even more moody! Nvm, I will soon recover. Well, Jolene and I did the crazy thing last THursday. We went to the sakae sushi store and then took 2 packets of watsabi and planned to eat them all up. Most people will not think that it is crazy, but at least I think so anyway. Will anybody eat watsabi alone? They will normally eat with something what! Right??? Nvm, if you dun think so, I think so.
Tomorrow is the movie marathon and I just hope that my rashes dun suddenly pop up in the middle of the night. Strange, I dun even feel a bit excited about it. I think I will sleep through the night. Yesterday, our cell had a study time. I dun even think that we studied although everybody brought their books. We were chatting the most of the time about other things. Lols. I agreed with nicole, this cell really has a high sense of humour. I think, cell makes me laugh the most in my everyday life. The things they say, it is so unpredictable. If you hang out with them, you will not stop laughing. That is wat I think. If you think otherwise, it is your problem.
Anyway, I managed to study a bit of my geog map reading test and most of them managed to finish their homwork. Nicole said we might be going on a cell outing soon. I hope so, now life is really so boring. I want to see something exciting happening!
Joanna xDs

2007-04-23T10:40:00.000-07:00

hihi, posting again after a long while. In com lab again, posting course very bored. I had not even started doing the crazy thing that wei ming wanted us to do. I think I am going to do it with Jolene. My rashes are irritating!!!! I dun even know what they are! I really must go see the doctor as soon as possible. For choir, our SYF got silver. I shall not comment much about that as I did not even took part in it. I just wanna say that they did a very great job and I am proud of them.
Today in com lab, we just did a lesson about the mr potato thingy. I think our class was like damn slow but then now I finish already so I can blog!!!!!!. Haha! So bored now! I think I will write until here lah.

Shirlyn and Joanna frenz 4ever! xDs Oh ya, I am Joanna

2007-04-08T10:32:00.000-07:00

Hihi, posting again. Last friday I went to Sentosa and then it was damn fun lor, Jolene never go lah, so sad. But then the next morning I got sunburnt and it hurts a lot. Lols. I am in the computer lab now, secretly posting, lols.
I brought Sherlyn to church to attend the easter service, too bad she cannot say for cell. Juz wanna tell everybody that I think I gonna fail all my tests. No confidence lah, haha. Anyway, I am Joanna. Bye!!! xDs

2007-03-30T23:06:00.000-07:00

Love bears all things, believes all things,hopes all things, endures all things.
No man/woman is worth your tears and the only one who is, will nevermake you cry.
If you love someone, put their name in a circle, instead of aheart, because hearts can break, but circles go on forever.
Everyone hears what you say.
Friends listen to what you say.
Best friendslisten to what you don't say.
If all my friends were to jump off a bridge, I wouldn't jump withthem, I'd be at the bottom to catch them.
Don't frown, because you never know who's falling in love with yoursmile!
"If you judge people, you have no time to love them"
"Be kind, for everyone you meet is fighting a harder battle."
Plato It takes a minute to have a crush on someone, an hour to like someone, and a day to love someone- but it takes a lifetime toforget someone."
"Enthusiasm is contagious. You could start an epidemic!" Send this to everyone you will never forget, and send it back to the personwho sent it to you too, just to show them that you will never forget themtoo.
Send this to everyone that you never will forget.
Some say love, it is a rivert hat drowns the tender reed.
Some say love, it is a razort hat leaves your soul to bleed
Some say love, it is a hunger
An endless aching need
I say love, it is a flower
And you its only seed
It's the soul afraid of dreaming,
That never learns to dance
And the soul afraid of waking,
That never takes the chance
It's the one, who won't be taken
Who cannot seem to give
And the soul afraid of dying,
That never learns to live
When the night has been too lonely
And the road has been too long
When you feel that love is only
For the lucky and the strong
Just remember in the winter
Far beneath the bitter snow
Lies the seed that with the sun's love
In the spring becomes the rose
I've searched around the worl
dfrom north to south, and east to west.
Day and night, in search of a friendbecause I only wanted thebest.
This friend must be kind and sincere,happy and full of cheer.
Someone who knows how to have lots of fun,and when times get rough, won't run.
Though I've searched the world looking for you,my friendship wishes finally came true.
I FOUNDYOU!

thanks JOANNA, for making me happy always =) love you forever!! =D

from your best friend SHIRLYN (:

2007-03-28T09:04:00.000-07:00

Hihihi, posting again. I am Joanna, by the way. I got kicked out of SYF just because of a sorethroat. Haha, lol.
I dun really mind lah, now no choir, so free, like a bird who has regained its freedom. I dun really mind getting kicked out lah, just that I a bit sad no CCA points lor.
School so sian, whole day tests one. Shirlyn cannot come for easter le, so sad rite??? I think I recovered my voice le, ty for wishing me a speedy recovery.
Busy now, btw, when I tag i wanna use the name megaJC. In future if u see this name, u will know it is me. I so lame. lots of XDs to u.

2007-03-25T20:32:00.000-07:00

Hi, Joanna here. Posting for the second time. Yesterday our cell went to downtown east and then guess what they wanted to eat, SUBWAY!!!! Omg, luckily, Jolene and I were smart enough to eat................. fried rice, lol. This past few days have been terrible! I had flu and sore throat!! Then I last friday go get the leave form from mrs loke and then it was extremely scary. Tomorrow I still have to face her, legs wobbly le, haha. Easter coming and I still have not even successfully invited a friend yet. I am so scared that Easter will be like Strings. I invited 5 friends and only 2 came. Desperate!!! Jolene, you gotta help me!! Shirlyn please come for Easter lah. K? desperate le. Otc so nice, but a bit confusing lah. School just reopen for the first week and then there is just so much homework! What is the purpose of life if you are so busy??? I don't understand. Tests all also start next week le. Very stress. Although my sore throat had recovered, my voice has not leh. I tried singing the everyone sang and then nothing came out, lol. Don't know if I shall sing tomorrow anot!! Depend on my voice lor. Shirlyn, I am so sad to tell you that Easter has no eggs! LOL Yipee! Otc finish the first series or whatever it is called!! Tomorrow I presenting the most memorable thingy lah. So lame lor, that thing. Then the history essay I also don't know how to write, sian sian sian!!! Hope the following week will be much better. Conversion starts with conversation!!!

2007-03-23T07:39:00.000-07:00

HELLOOO!!!=) shirlyn here! saddd....joanna unwell...with sore throat and flu...get well soon!! =D today choir so stressed =.= everyone sang we sang until like almost panting...coz alot of ppl can't hit the right note...but nvm need to jiayou!! =) syf coming..hope we all can get in! and OUCH i hurt my knee! yesterday when i went to moelc after lunch at ghim moh hawker centre,i FORGOT my bag was at the hawker centre...then it was 2.25pm...5 more mins. then i chiong until fall down..until tou2 po4 xie3 liu2 >.

2007-03-18T21:40:00.000-07:00

Hahaha, finally can log in le. Easter coming yipee!!!!! Now i very busy. Next time will write more le. First time creating join blogs. Hahahaha.

2007-03-16T23:03:00.000-07:00

oh yay!!!our joint blog! xDD this song is nice right,by fahrenheit =) today so dao mei,play msn game with joanna com keep lagging...but i like saving momo!! xDD kkz please come and tag often and link us!<3 homework =")">

we love joanna and shirlyn =)